Showing posts with label stories. Show all posts
Showing posts with label stories. Show all posts

4.04.2011

Snow Balls, Bicycles & Childhood Memories

Initially I came over to post woah is me & i feel so blah. But after looking at my flickr account I realized there is a story to tell and a moment to reflect on. So, pardon me while I wax nostalgic. :)

Growing up was silly, serious business in my family. I came from a good sized family who were cut from the same mold and reveled in time spent together in all seasons. Summers by the pool and the white waffle lawn furniture sticky from all the watermelon and red kool-aid.  Falls spent picking the garden together till dusk. Winters spent cutting wood for fireplaces in which we snuggled around. Spring was for planting and running through the fresh cut grass. For making crowns from monkey grass and dandelions and making mud pies.

But when I was small a calling led my family from my red Georgia mud roots to a sweepy, moss covered, soulish New Orleans. Where it was hot and humid when it was hot. Where it was wet and cold when it was cold. Where it could flood in the morning and make you swelter in the heat by lunch. It's in this beautiful town where I climed oak trees like jungle gyms, learned to drive a boat and eat shrimp and crawfish the right way. New Orleans is where I really had my childhood. Summers were still spent weeks at a time with my family in Georgia. I always called Georgia home, but now reflecting back, New Orleans holds such a sweet spot in my spirit.

When you're a kid you tend think everyone has money and there is nothing but time to stop you from doing something spectacular. My parents were so creative to keep us busy without spending much money! We fed bread to seagulls at the docks on Lake Ponchartrain and had picnics of Rally's hamburgers and french fries. We would park on stormy days on a concrete island type parking lot and let the waves crash over our anceint Ford van. We went to City park and played on the mossy oak trees and watched the ducks paddle through the lilly pads. We rode the fairy across the mighty Mississippi and I cried because my dad told me that fairies weren't real. I was so confused that we were going to ride a fairy, when they weren't real. We rode our bikes to school every morning. In fact, we rode our bikes everywhere.
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It's strange how you don't realize until you're older the things that were really special to you as a child. Those bike rides were my childhood. We would ride to the Winn-Dixie and get necessities. We would ride the leeve to the Kenner Peir. We would ride through the ancient oaks in Harahan. We even rode our bikes to downtown New Orleans, well almost. We got a few miles away and decided to turn around.. it was a long bike ride from home!
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One of the best places we would ride bikes to was Droopy's Snow Ball Stand or Ro-bears Snow Ball Stand. Both of which were right next to and across the street from my beautiful elementary school. I can't begin to tell you the combinations of flavors you can try on a snow ball, and if you've never had one, then you are truly missing out on a cup of Heaven. Anything from Orange Dream stuffed with Ice Cream in the middle or my brother's favorite Chocolate with Condensed milk on top! Or Wedding Cake, Spearamint, Tiger Lilly, Cotton Candy, Fuzzy Navel, or Pina Colada! There are so many different flavors, but one thing I know for a fact is this: If you ever have a sno-ball, you will love them for the rest of your life.



Last week on our anniversary trip we rode bikes and got a snow ball. Honestly, it was the best vacation I've had... and that's because it touched a part of my soul that still believes in fairys and that my daddy is superman. Something that reminds you of who you are and where you come from. Something that eases the woahs of this life and brings joy back to tired eyes. I wish I had a bike and a sno ball machine, life would be so much more grand. :)


(Reading this article while searching for pictures of Droopy's & Ro-bears made me cry a little. Sno-balls must be a part of growing up in New Orleans, as even the author of this article gets a bit poetic.)

What parts of your childhood make you wax poetic?

12.23.2010

Life isn't a Norman Rockwell

Hey guys! Are you ready for Christmas yet?! It's only TWO days away! I can't wait for my brother and his wife to get here tomorrow night and let the fun begin!
I know that this time of year is so much fun for people, but there are a lot of people that this time of year is really hard to make it through.
We all have our own ideas and opinions of what a "perfect christmas" is, but let's be honest- life is not perfect. If it were perfect then everyday would look like a Norman Rockwell, but in my life it is FAR from that.
I want to share something deep from inside me, if you don't mind. I'm making it a point to make this blog personal, and I can't be real with you and not share the dread that I am feeling about Chirstmas.
I used to have ^this family. The family who got together EVERY holiday, EVERY birthday, and EVERY Sunday for lunch at Grandmama's house. The family who acted silly and wild, but loved each other very much. You know, the family that everyone wishes they had. It's so easy to be jaded when you're little and think that everything is perfect. It's even easy to overlook things when you get older and realize everything is not what it seems. But it is not easy to deal with the fact that you no longer have THAT kind of family.
My Grandmama died and when she did the grief of losing her literally tore my dad's family apart. We got together that Thanksgiving and tried to make it work. Tried to maker her special, one of a kind dressing, turkey and secrect bar-b-que sauce. We tried to make nice and pretend like she was still there. But she wasn't. And without her the love in that family evaporated. She was such a special and unique person that all of us together couldn't match her kindness and love. We tried, Lord knows we tried, but it didn't work.
You would think at 19, you could try and fix that situation. But I was trying so hard to act like I wasn't affected that she was gone (something I still do and still deal with a lot.), I just went along with all the charades. Needless to say, I don't remember what that year's Christmas was like. But I do know that the next year our family was so at odds that no one spoke to each other. My dad & mom moved away and no one even looked twice in their direction.
It's been that way ever since. For the past four years my family has acted like children. Last year, my mom decided that we needed to get together and she invited the whole family up for Thanksgiving. Enough time had passed that everyone was friendly, but the bitterness underneath it all was still there. You might not have been able to tell from the outside, but it was there. This year when Thanksgiving came, we didn't hear from that side of our family. I later found out that they had a family thing without us. The whole family besides my dad and his kids. It broke my heart. It made me so angry. Still. After all this time and all these years I am so angry that they are so blind. If we can't love our family, then how are we supposed to love strangers? If we can't love our family, then how are we supposed to care about the people who are suffering in this world? If we can't love our family, the people who share our dna structure and blood lines, then how can we love ourselves.
I wish SO BAD, that I could fix this family. That I could peel off a giant band-aid and put it on the wounds, but it can't be fixed. Now, after this year, I'm not so sure I want it to be fixed because I'm sure they don't care about us the way I care about them. I hope God has mercy on us and I wish so earnestly that he would fit it. I've prayed for years and years that he would, but it just isn't his time I guess.
So, I wish I had that tradition back in my life... cause the holidays aren't the same without them. I am very family oriented and the only thing I can do now is surround myself with the family that I have here and the ones I let in close enough to be family. But they still don't fill that empty space.